Another milestone: today I am 5 years clean and I am not ashamed to say I am an alcoholic and an addict. I cannot believe how my life has changed in the last 5 years. I would like to say a special thank you to everyone in my journey, especially my parents for being there for me and supporting me in the way they did. I truly believe that without my parents’ love (Tough Love!) I would not be where I am today.
Another very special thank you to Steven Thomson and the team at Harmony Addictions Clinic for the awesome work they do and for helping me get clean. Also for allowing me the opportunity to work for them in my early recovery; it was an amazing experience and I learnt so much. It was also wonderful to be able to give back and help others.
There are 2 things that come up for me on my milestone.
The first is how lucky I am to be clean today and how amazing life is sober. I have so much gratitude for all that I have today. I have an amazing family, the best hubby in the world, a daughter that makes my heart burst with love and I am 18 weeks pregnant with another girl a darling boy that completes me in so many ways. I don’t have a huge amount of friends, but the ones I do have are the right kind of friend; the special kind that don’t come along every day.
Secondly I also have my own business that is growing steadily every day and I get a huge amount of satisfaction and joy working for myself.
Beyond all of these blessings the other thing that comes up for me is a huge amount of sadness for all the friends I made in recovery that have not made it. A lot of people I’ve met along the way have died from this horrible disease and many more have fallen and are active addicts. I often wonder why I am clean and others didn’t make it?
I know it took hard work and dedication to the program, but there is also a lot of higher power stuff that came into it. If you or anyone you know has a problem, you need help to get through this, you can not do it alone! Contact someone in a rehab facility or get hold of someone at Alcoholics Anonymous and get the help you need.
You can have a better life. I am living proof of that!
If you would like some advice or assistance to find someone to help you, reach out to me and I will gladly assist you with someone to contact.
Hi Lynne,
Thank u for bringing this to my attention. I must say I look up to u and honor ur strenth to over come ur demons and alow urself to get better.
I look back at my life every day and often wonder where I would be if I never had my son. I never looked at myself as being an alcoholic but I knew I had a problem. I knew deep down what I was doing was wrong but thought to myself its what’s making me happy right now so how could it be a problem, how could it be wrong? Then I’d take another sip. I don’t believe that I’m “cured” but iv learnt to control it. Sometimes when I’m angry, sad or stressed I often think of going into a bottle but then I look at my son and stop dead in my tracks. He’s my number one priority, he’s who I need 2 live for. That’s why I call him my miracle baby.
Thank u again for alowing me 2 read ur story. And keep up the good work!
It is a pleasure Lauren 🙂 And keep doing the best for your baby!