It has been an incredibly hard week behind the scenes 29 July 2022. I had a slip and I drank after nearly 14 years of sobriety. Due to this, I have not managed to get much work done as my main focus has been doing the next right thing and keeping myself sober.
Watch The Replay Of My Facebook Live Video – Behind The Scenes 29 July 2022
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A Drinking Slip After Nearly 14 Years Of Sobriety
Things have been really hard for a very long time. I did not realise how much I’ve been trying to hold onto control and keep things together. This week I completely lost it and drank. Something I never thought I would do again. Having a relapse has been my worst fear. I always thought if I relapsed I would go right back to where I was before I got sober and not manage to pull myself out of it.
I drank for half a day and then stopped. It hit me like a slap in the face and I asked myself what I’m doing. Instead of picking up another drink I phoned my mom, my sister and my sister in law and outed myself.
I can’t go into too much detail about why I lost control, I will just say that my marriage is on the rocks and it has been for a very long time. The reason I’m not prepared to talk about it is because I’m not the only one in this marriage and talking about what has been going is not fair to my husband.
My energy levels are incredibly low and I feel so drained, so I am not able to get much done other than focus on my recovery. I’m also taking action to ensure that I am not in the same situation I’ve been in for so long, because continuing down the same path will lead to the same results.
When I’m in a stronger place I will pick up with being more active on my blog.