On the 28 January I decided that it is time breastfeeding comes to an end, this is the final toll for me to escape the breastfeeding and tiredness.
This was one of the worst days, yet the one of the best too. After 3 years of breastfeeding and being used as a dummy I decided that I can no longer be pinned down and pulled apart as soon as we either sit down or even when we are visiting people.
I could never go and enjoy myself as it would always turn out with me sitting with my boob out most of the time or my son screaming when I would refuse.
On the morning of the 28th of January he woke up and we did a morning feed , without me even having a thought that it would be the last but me feeling very weak after my rough week prior to that being ill I decided last minute that this is it and I am going to pull through with it.
The afternoon we came home from school he tried pinning me down and I got up and said no more. I was thrown with shoes, hit on my legs, even bitten to the point where I closed him up in his room and gave him some timeout. The tears filled my eyes and my heart was broken to see my son in a state like that but I knew it was all or nothing this time, After the screaming and shouting and all of the rest we lay down on the bed together and I offered him a nice warm bottle of milk that he has never ever drunk. He then took it and lay in my arms.
The explaining then started that my boobies has no more milkies and that he drank it all away and now he is hurting me. He seemed to have understood that, I then also told him that I promise to buy him something very special the next day and he was excited. Every time he would ask for boobie I reminded him of his gift and the whole night he slept through.
Next morning another bit of a screaming match but we overcame it with me reminding him of the present. I then bought him a Lollo’s bag with which he has a total obsession and when he unwrapped it he was over then moon., Ever since that day all I have to do is remind him of his Lollo’s bag and then boobie is forgotten.
This has been a long, exhausting journey for me but it has come to an end finally with lots of patience and love.