When you realize that you have a mental illness it can be a very scary time. I remember the moment that I realized my own truth [I am a drug addict and an alcoholic] and one of the things that went through my mind was what will people think of me now? The things associated with being a drug addict and an alcoholic are not exactly positive are they?
When I thought of an addict I thought of someone lying passed out with a needle in their arm and when I thought of an alcoholic the mental picture that came to me was of someone lying in the gutter, very possibly in their own pee and vomit.
I also thought that addicts brought it on themselves, that they caused their own problems – when the facts are that there are many reasons for mental illness and it is not easy to pinpoint the exact cause.
It was not easy coming to terms with my problem. To top it off I have also been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. For anyone that doesn’t know what Bipolar Disorder is, to just put it simply my moods don’t work the same as other people. Most people have shifts in their moods but if you have Bipolar Disorder these shifts are much more extreme – moving between periods of mania and depression.
After I got into recovery and got clean I spent a period of time feeling lots of shame for my condition. I didn’t want anyone to know that I had not just one mental disorder but a few since along with addiction and Bipolar Disorder I was also codependent which was causing even more dysfunction in my relationships.
Now a funny thing happened one day, I was walking around town when I bumped into someone that I was friendly with during school [yes a long time ago] and she asked me what I had been up to. For some reason it just came out of me that I had just come out of rehab. I was about to shrink with shame when she said she is so glad to hear that I have finally gotten the help that I needed. She was supportive and non-judgmental.
This was a beautiful moment for me that actually changed my life, not only did I realize that most people had already noticed that things were not quite right with me [duh, actually I was the last to know, talk about denial!], but I have nothing to be ashamed of.
From that moment onwards I have always been open and honest about my mental illnesses and I have found that the more open I am the more acceptance I find from other people. We would all love to say that we don’t care what other people think, but the truth is that we all do care and we all do want to be accepted.
I believe that something standing in the way of so many people finding help for mental illness is this deep need to be accepted and the fear that they may be rejected if they are open about it.
I just wanted to share with you that almost every single time I tell anyone that I have Bipolar Disorder and I am an addict and alcoholic I almost always get exactly the same response. The person I am talking to tells me that they have a mental disorder or they have a close family member or friend that has one.
It was so amusing recently when I met up with a group of bloggers recently and while we were having lunch we realized that 3 out of 4 of us were on the same medication. Yvette Hess, one of the bloggers I met also has Bipolar Disorder and shares openly about it on her blog.
So how come when so many people have a mental disorder is there this stigma attached to mental illness? I believe it is time to break through this stigma and I doing my bit by blogging about my experiences. Most of what I have to share about addiction and mental health issues is on my addiction website Living With Addiction.
You are welcome to check out that website, but I am also going to be bringing a lot more of that through to this blog too so I can reach many more people.
I also suffered from PND after the birth of my first baby – it was a terrible experience and I sympathize with moms that go through this.
Apparently one in four people suffer from mental illness in some form whether it be depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, addiction or one of the many more types of mental illness.
One in four people is a huge amount of the population, so it really comes as no surprise that so many people I speak to has a mental disorder or someone close to them that has one.
If you are struggling I can promise you that you are not alone and I highly recommend that you speak out and get the help that you need.
I’ve been to rehab for my addiction and alcoholism. I have also spent some time in a psychiatric ward… and you know what? It wasn’t that bad. In fact the worse part for me was the fear before booking myself in.
Through counseling and treatment I have managed to make some huge changes to my life and I have found happiness.
I find lots of inspiration, motivation and support connecting with other mommy bloggers that have shared their personal experiences with mental illness. I really find that I can relate so much to the articles that they have written – bloggers are notorious for baring it all and getting real which is what needs to happen to break free of the stigma of mental illness.
Mommy Bloggers With Mental Illness
Here are some really awesome articles that you can read by mommy bloggers sharing their own experiences. It was a truly amazing experience to connect with Yvette Hess online when I was searching for mommy bloggers with mental illness only to find out that we live so close to each other I can probably throw a stone through her window from my house!
It is so lovely to connect with another mother that blogs and that has Bipolar Disorder, we really have so much in common – and connecting with someone like this really helps when you start to feel alone.